The Letter I Would Love To Read To You In Person
ADDENDUM
⊲ I wish that the Film Development Council of the Philippines would understand the value of the money they’re given and consider going to Paris and spending five million of their 25 million allotment for a showcase given by a young festival as an investment, and not just a vacation.
⊲ I hope they support filmmakers with finished work to go abroad to festivals for the pride they bring their country—I wish instead they would support their films locally, and help them get seen by larger Filipino audiences.
⊲ I cry for the loss of Manuel Conde’s Juan Tamad films.
⊲ I cry for a country that can’t convince a single Filipino-American who owns the only known print of Conde’s Genghis Khan in its original language to return (i.e. sell) the film back to his mother country.
⊲ I cry for the generations of Filipinos, myself included, that can no longer see Gerry De Leon’s Daigdig ng Mga Api, and instead have scans of movie ads to admire on the internet.
⊲ I mourn a heritage that has allowed the prints of Mario O’Hara’s Tatlong Taong Walang Diyos and Peque Gallaga’s Oro, Plata, Mata to turn flush sepia through neglect.
⊲ I cry for a Union and University of the Philippines that conspire in apathy to let the master negatives of treasures produced by Bancom to rot in rooms only air conditioned half the day and in cans untouched for years and years.
⊲ I pray for a Senator or Congressman to take the courageous step of drafting a bill to help establish a National Film and Sound archive.
⊲ I pray a city government or even enterprising and concerned theater owners will consider settings aside 50 centavos or a peso of a ticket to go toward the preservation of our national audiovisual heritage. There have been flood taxes siphoned from movie tickets. For crying out loud, this should be easy!
⊲ I wish Cinemalaya which, thanks to the media and government mileage behind it has a great festive excitement, would actually put their efforts in service of Philippine cinema, and not in their own self-involved attempt to start a micro-industry.
⊲ I wish filmmakers would stop listening to Robbie Tan.
⊲ I wish Cinema one, which often produces better films than Cinemalaya, would actually give filmmakers some rights to their work and stop swindling them.
⊲ I wish Lav Diaz had larger budgets to maneuver and shoot with.
⊲ I wish Raymond Red would get to make Makapili and return to making fantastic shorts in the experimental mode.
⊲ I wish Mike De Leon would make another movie. . . . Please . . . we need it.
⊲ I wish Roxlee would get enough money to buy the time to make an animated feature.
⊲ I wish everyone would buy a copy of Nicanor Tiongson and Cesar Hernando’s The Cinema of Manuel Conde.
⊲ I wish there were more books on Philippine cinema.
⊲ I wish there were a series of classic screenplays that would get published.
⊲ I wish Cinefilipino would have put out Maalaala Mo Kaya with the reels in the proper order.
⊲ I wish Cinefilipino would have put our their Brocka titles with just a little bit of care and affection, providing some writing on the film or some features, and didn’t just throw them out there to earn.
⊲ I wish Nestor Torre would open his eyes . . .
⊲ I wish the Manunuri books on Philippine cinema in the 70s and 80s would go back in print.
⊲ I wish the Manunuri actually cared about Philippine cinema today.
⊲ I wish the Manunuri actually reviewed films instead of just giving out awards.
⊲ I wish the Young Critics Circle were actually young.
⊲ I wish the Young Critics Circle were actually critics.
⊲ I wish Francis “Oggs” Cruz, Richard Bolisay, and Dodo Dayao would get space in the broadsheets, because they’re far more interesting than anyone writing regularly there today.
⊲ I wish Noel Vera would move back.
⊲ I wish Hammy Sotto was still alive.
⊲ I wish Hammy Sotto’s manuscripts would get published.
⊲ I wish Jo Atienza was still in Manila.
⊲ I wish we had a fully supported Film Museum.
⊲ I wish we had a Cinematheque.
⊲ I wish the UP Film Center had better seats and showed good films.
⊲ I wish more non-filmmakers from the Philippines would get to travel to festivals.
⊲ I wish film were taught in high schools.
⊲ I wish Teddy Co would get the recognition that he deserves for his selfless work.
⊲ I wish Teddy Co would write more, as his ideas deserve to be recorded.
⊲ I wish co-ops would co-operate.
⊲ I wish Khavn De La Cruz would get to make his musical EDSA XXX.
⊲ I wish the Max Santiago feature would get made, and that shorts would finally come to my hands on DVD (Hi Marla!)
⊲ I wish Tad Ermitaño never stops writing and playing in his cave.
⊲ I wish Lourd De Veyra continues writing on actors and cinema.
⊲ I wish Raymond Lee UFO successes.
⊲ I wish we had more regional feature films and more support for regional filmmakers.
⊲ I wish everyone would watch When Timawa Meets Delgado.
⊲ I wish someone would lower MTRCB rates for screenings fees, especially for festivals.
⊲ I wish someone, anyone, would make a good, thought-provoking film about the Philippine upper-class.
⊲ I wish Ketchup Eusebio would get more leading roles.
⊲ I wish Elijah Castillo gets to do a lot more films, soon.
⊲ I wish Cesar Hernando would get to transfer Botika, Bituka.
⊲ I wish filmmakers had some integrity and told Viva to screw themselves when offered another exploitation film.
⊲ I wish more people could see the film Bontoc Eulogy.
⊲ I wish Vic Del Rosario wasn’t presidential advisor on Entertainment, given the shlock they produce, and, yes, that includes the films which starred First-Son Mikey Arroyo.
⊲ I wish Star Cinema would stop . . . just stop.
⊲ I wish there was a film library that people could go to and read books on cinema.
⊲ I wish the MMFF wasn’t handled by the same people who install public urinals (admittedly useful).
⊲ I wish the MMDA didn’t call those circles and boxes Art.
⊲ I wish that MMDA Art wasn’t so much better than every MMFF film.
⊲ I wish Philippine cinema all the success in the world . . .
61 Comments on this post. Add your own comment below
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RIP Alexis. I’m glad I got to meet your brilliance and passion for Philippine Cinema first hand.
to add to your wishlist:
I wish Filipinos would be passionate about being Filipinos.
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this is exactly why you will be missed. your work changed the way I view philippine cinema. RIP, mr. tioseco.
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Who said we dont have anything worthy as a country? The irony is it had to take a friend of another land to call our attention away from the much commercialized ‘attractions’ of our neighbors before we fully appreciate and support what has already been allotted to us as a nation.
Yes, the Filipino can and has it! Our frame of thinking needs an awakening. Its is the same frame of thinking that has fettered our country for so long—-even in governance (now that elections are fast approaching) we look for ‘winnability’, ‘popularity’, and allow prejudices to govern when its has been dominating and dictating national politics for so long but wasnt recognized—- same as what Mr. Tioseco relates as the beauty and excellence we have.
Thank you and more power! -
I can’t believe that his dead already. Such a brilliant man. Gone too soon.
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I wish for the same things too dude.
RIP Alexis.
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RIP
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Gone too soon my friend, rest in peace to you and your gf..
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love brotha!!! love!!!
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brilliant prose by a brilliant man. ive only read about you now. rest in peace,sir. you live on in your writing.
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Why does God take away all the good people too soon? He’ll surely be missed.
Rest in peace, Alexis and Nika.

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Eggy, why’d you have to go too soon? You still owe me coffee (or tea.) :(
You will be missed.“How are you, Poli?“
“I’m ok. How are you?“
“I’m great. You look sad. What’s bothering you?“
“Nothing. Just tired.“
“C’mon let’s smoke.“And I’ll surely miss sitting in silence with you, staring at the smoke patterns that the cigarettes make while the coffee gets cold.
Rest in peace, Eggy.
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You will forever be missed Mr. Alexis Tioseco. It was a privilege to be part of your first teaching stint at UA&P.
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Not only in Filipina, members of Indonesian film communities who are lucky enough to know him are in shock. Only the good die young! Rest in Peace, Alexis.
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I just saw him at cinemalaya this year at the ccp i believe with nika… wow what a sursprise… only the good one’s die so young. RIP you two

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May you both Rest In Peace..
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yes, we in indonesia are as shocked and sad.
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once you have said, that ten years from now you wanted to be like hafiz. well, i guess every plans and schemes only works coincidentally…may you rest in peace alexis. our short meeting is really inspiring :(
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this is really sad. :(
may you guys rest in peace. -
I don’t know you personally, but when I saw the news on TV this morning I shed a tear. When I read your this article this afternoon, I a sobbed uncontrollably.
I wish you did not feel too much pain.
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He’s exactly the kind of youth this country needs. It is so sad that he has been taken away by violence in his supposedly native country. He made a choice to stay here and did his best to give his 2 cents to the improvement of Philippine cinema. And this is how he is repaid. So sad. May you rest in peace with your beloved Nika and enjoy the eternal cinema in the sky.
I hope you get reincarnated soon. Serious.

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Rest In Peace Alexis.. glad to know you in person..
Rest in Peace Nika.. -
Monumental loss for Philippine Cinema.
Just when it looked like deliverance was getting closer.
This article is a legacy to Filipinos and Filipino culture.I only saw Alexis on TV once, at an interview with Butch Dalisay re
National Artist awards. His depth and sharpness was most striking. At home in Sydney, we were struck deeply by this terrible news of homicide.The Philippine government owes its people justice.
Whoever hired those demons must NEVER be allowed to get away with it. -
I took his class for one semester. By far, he was one of the most brilliant professors I have ever had. He had this eye for film that I constantly struggle to understand to this day. He could always see the elegance where I could not.
My only regret is that I feel I did not give as much as I should have in performing in his class.
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Dear Alexis, though we met only 4 a brief period of time, I hv alwiz admired ur passion 4 phillipino cinema n brilliance. U hv changd lives n perspectives. May U n Nika rest in peace. I will alwiz miss u dearly..
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I always found some of the movies he showed us during my 1st year sort of dragging… but at the end of the class, he’d always have this enlightening message on the what the movie was all about and how it is so much related to people’s behaviors and thoughts which then would branch out towards the country’s deteriorating however still hopeful future. he had a lot of ideas which was never put to action/writing. it was a tragic incident. it shouldn’t have happened.
I wish I had paid more attention in class. would’ve probably learned more.
Rest in Peace Sir
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I admire the courage that it took for Mr. Tioseco to tell it as it is.
I pray for more truth-tellers to rise as one is made to rest.
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You are a great loss to me, yet I never met you Alexis. Maybe that is why I hurt. Just this noon before I saw the news on television…I was watching belatedly your TV appearance with Cheche Lazaro on the National Artist Award. Working in film and television, I told myself I must meet this brilliant mind. There is so much to learn from him.
I am truly sad. May you rest in peace
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RIP Alexix. RIP Nika…..Slovenia will always remember you with honor
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Happy love will never die…
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sorry in my English,
if not both of you,Lav Diaz,and filmvirus
it might not be able to screen Lav Diaz films in Bangkok
I’m the one who lied in blanket under the row seats
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I never knew Alexis, other than by reputation. As a fellow writer, film enthusiast and creative spirit - and as an expat with a great love of the Philippines, I feel saddened at the news of his premature death. But I can see from the many tributes that he must have been a very special person.
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Sir,
May you rest in peace, this is such a big loss for everyone because you are such a great person who is humble enough not to brag about wisdom but is kind enough to share.Thank you! Will continue to pray for justice!
You will forever be my crush -
together in death…
May your souls rest in peace
sherliez
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I remember the time when I got to hangout with you, John Torres, Khavn De la Cruz, Quark Henares and Raya Martin after a film festival. Though I was just the silent kid at the seat, I was completely overwhelmed by your conversation that I was much inspired to know more and write more about film.
It was a great privilege to shake your hand.
Thank you very much Mr. Alex, we will miss you.
And I do hope that the passion for [serious] filmmaking and writing [may it be script or essay] lives on.
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I don’t know Alexis. I was introduced to him by my daughter Banaue who was then doing Lav Diaz’s Ebolusyon ng Pamilyang Pilipino. I read his review of Batang West Side. And admired his writing and his insight. Finally, there’s a film critic! This letter, “The Letter I would Love….“ is a testament to Alexis’ big heart and admirable soul. He is a class by himself. Sayang, we have a dearth of people with character and we lose them.
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Your blogs changed my perspective and belief in Philippine Cinema. You made me love going to see Pinoy movies again… how I wish I had the style, insight, intellect and wit to write as beautifully as you did here and everywhere else.
You and Nika shall be missed. Godspeed.
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birbirini seven iki insanın bu hayatı yaşayamamaları gerçekten üzücü. üstelik sinema gibi bir mucizeyi benim gibi hayatlarına sokmuş onunla yaşıyor olmaları bu iki kişiyi kendimle özdeştirmeme sebep oldu. I am sad for them
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I met Alexis twice but was really taken with him and said I would go to events he organized as often as I could. Such vision for the Philippines. Wrote him (and Nika) this poem from where I am in Germany.
It is my belief that these two wont be resting - two people like that who are so convinced of working for the good keep on doing things for the world and for the Philipines from the new condition of being in the spiritual world and from there they can still touch the lives of many - maybe even more so than in life. We should believe in what they believe in and work with them to realise Alexis’s dream. That is the very best thing to do for them, I believe.
FOR ALEXIS AND NIKA
A white bird
flying swallow-freely through dark pillars
gives my soul the strength it needs.Remembering my beloved
singing as the light falls softly
fills my heart with hope.The knives and guns of this world’s wickedness
seem at times to be a force
in which all good
is utterly destroyed.But love endures
and is the greater force.
We need to remember
when overwhelmed by knives and guns.The goodness that I still see shining in your eyes
cannot be taken from the world;
it shines on still. -
rest in peace Alexis and Nika
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He had so much hope, energy, love, not just for cinema, for everyone who knew him.
I’d always imagined he’d outlive me—that he’d somehow carry the torch (I know, I know—my presumptuousness at assuming I carry anything! But we’re so few that set our eyes on Manila). It seems so wrong.
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This letter is truly moving… it made me wish that I have known Alexis more…
The thing that I will always remember about Alexis was that whenever I will bump into him in any film events, he has a ready smile of warmth & kindness and he always have this humble presence… and he never fails to acknowledge, even with just a nod, the people around him…
God Bless you Alexis wherever you are… and to Nika as well…
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As you said Alexis, “I am willing to meet Nica anywhere else..“ Nica has profound impact on your life and its contribution to pride in the Filipino and his art through films.
Your legacy is your desire for Pinoys to love quality Pinoy films and for the outside world to see and love our quality film creations.
The FAMAS should have and Alexis Tioseco Impact Film Award that will showcase the greatness and creativity of Pinoy films that impact Filipino sensitivity and socio-cultural dimension.
Wherever you and Nica are, wishing you all the best. -
Eggy, I will miss you and our days in UA&P. I am sure you will continue to look over Philippine film and the future greatness it deserves.
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I still get goosebumps and tears streaming down to my face whenever I recall you’re already gone (God bless your soul and Nika’s). I would always ask myself, “is this real?“ ‘cause I’m still in disbelief. And every time, Reality would hesitantly answer me, it is real—you are gone. My heart bursts with combined anger and sadness. Why do those persons (i don’t know if they deserve to be called ‘persons’ anymore) have to…(i can’t say it, it’s too tragic :c )??!! Why?! It’s nonsense. It’s nonsense. :c
There’s nothing left to do but to: 1) pray for the repose of your souls 2) pray that justice, soon, will hunt those people down and punish them 3) convince myself that it was your time and you already served your purpose in this half-cruel half-wonderful world 4) hope all your wishes will be granted and 5) believe that you would still help us fulfill all these from above.
I am so happy and thankful to have met you (as a professor, good friend, and inspiration). I am so proud that you are one of the few who actually stayed in and lived for our country. You will be missed. You surely will be remembered.
No goodbyes. Only good memories.
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i remember getting in touch with a certain filmmaker because of alexis’ writing. i had parts of my email then quoting from alexis’ rogue article because i was truly impressed after reading about the director’s work. i was never his student, but i learned a lot from him through his works (what more if i actually had him as a professor)
thank you, mr. tioseco.
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I’m sad and with dis-appointment. I started to had a lot of questions of “what if” into my mind right now. I don’t know Alexis Tioseco in person. This is the first time I heard about him. I’d learned a lot of things and was blessed since I had my fb account. I don’t understand why should good people be the target because of poverty ?
I believe that we can do something to help our beloved country if we just help each other to fight poverty. It’s not easy but when are we gonna start?
Am crying now and my heart goes out to the Tioseco’s family. May this case find justice Lord.
My prayers are with the Tioseco’s family.
What makes one rich? In living a life of honor and high integrity, leaving the “stuff” and “possessions” aside, giving of yourself to help and care for others, and being a gift to this troubled world yields a rich and full life that is beyond compare. -
fucking brilliant.
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Wow! The story is very well-written. It is very interesting, and it becomes even more interesting when you know that it is true. I adore reading biographies. And this very story reminded me a biography by Theodor Dreiser. There are some common moments. I also hope that the author of this story will be as famous as the well-known writter.
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RIP Alexis Tioseco..
although, you were not my teacher in UA&P, i admire and respect your brilliant works. You have inspired many with your passion for Philippine cinema. very patriotic! thumbs up for you Mr. Alexis Tioseco!!
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Thank you for making it sound easier than it is. It seems as if we don’t have to dream but rather, great things must be done like all the other mundane things we do everyday-which is just how it should be.
I will always admire your work, the passion that you have and the love that you two share. Rest well, together. -
alexis & nika,
thank you for showing us the hope that love will work if those in it will.
alexis,
thank you for you have brought back my love for filipino films, overshadowed before by dismay and disappointment over the rubbish film houses churn out just to earn bucks.
nika,
thank you for your love of language (as i try to see you through alexis’ eyes) and of words. as i say, the pen is mightier than the sword, but it is the tongue that is sharpest of all.
alexis and nika, thank you. lay in peace.
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why is it only in death that i get to know you?
“unless a grain of wheat falls to the ground and dies, it remains just a grain of wheat; but if it dies it produces much fruit.“ John 12:24
May God grant you, brother Alexis, and you, sister Nika eternal rest.
May your Love bear fruit in all of us.
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stef wrote on Wed, September 02, 2009 at 10:13:36
RIP Alexis. I’m glad I got to meet your brilliance and passion for Philippine Cinema first hand.
to add to your wishlist:
I wish Filipinos would be passionate about being Filipinos.
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Just finished watching a docu about you mr. Tioseco in ANC’s Storyline. I had no idea of who you were but I was amazed as much as I was intrigued on how your articulateness and brilliance were depicted. I immediately opened my laptop to read your works in the internet and was shocked and very much saddened… To realize why your name sounded so familiar… It was a few weeks back when I had heard that dreadful incident in QC. It is unfortunate that good persons like you, and Nika, with so much to contribute, let alone inspire genuine nationalism especially to us Filipinos, had to be casualties of crime,just one of the bi-products of the ever worsening poverty here, corrupting the minds of most of us…
I could only wish that there would be more Filipinos as brave and passionate in our nation as you.
Thank you for your contributions mr. Tioseco. May you rest in peace.
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I was trying to find the TV channel showing news 24/7 and something familiar caught my attention. It’s Alexis and Nika’s story being featured by ANC’s Storyline. I didn’t know about this tragedy or these people until my Slovenian husband told me about it. Gave me goosebumps while watching the part where this letter is being read, but even more while reading this letter myself. This is the letter I hope more Filipinos get to read. Thanks to Alexis for making me appreciate my being Pinay more.
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The content of the letter is very meaningful, Alexis i could not say anything more, you are a great loss to those who know you, who just knew you, and who wants to know you. Rest in Peace.
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Mr. Alexis Tuiseco was a GREAT LOSS to the world and to the film critics field… He inspired some Filipinos to appreciate local films to the extent that he sacrificed his other interests in life. But his passion for film critic is undying and eternal.I’m one of those people who read the article in ROGUE and it was awesome. Unfortunately, I could never meet him personally, I wish that I once met him before he died…sad but RIP and GOD bless his soul…



your legacy lives on. i’ll be forever thankful to you for inspiring me and making me love cinema better.